Motherhood

Lately, my mind has been on the more "simple" things in life... not the extravagant, turn-up-your-nose, socially acceptable things.

To me, there is nothing more beautiful than a mother. Honestly. I look at a woman who truly VALUES her calling as a mother. It seems like these women are few and far between now days. It's heart breaking that motherhood is so greatly mocked. Motherhood doesn't make you "less". It makes you "more". I am not the same person I was two-and-a-half years ago. I am better than I was.

I have made the decision to go back to school this Fall. Nic and I are so excited and we feel this is the right decision for us at this point in our lives. I'm going to be a nurse... not for the title, not for the money, not for the "arrogance" that seems to come so easily to so many fulfilling this career (let me clarify... not ALL nurses are arrogant, just the... arrogant ones. Those who know what I'm talking about understand the repetitive nature of this confusing pile of words). I'm going to be a nurse because I have a PERSONAL understanding of the importance of GOOD nurses, nurses who CARE about more than their textbook knowledge and proving how much they "know". I'm going to be a nurse who sees the personable side of people. I'm not saying it's going to be an easy thing to do... but in the words of one of the EXTREMELY FEW doctors I trust, "the moment a person in the medical field doesn't feel... doesn't cry at the loss of one of their 'patients'... who doesn't truly love those they are working with, need to quit their job and move on to something else." It's too easy to put feelings aside. It's too easy to build that wall that keeps you from connecting with another soul.

Nic and I have learned the value of those who are willing to be vulnerable and care. That is why we are both going to be nurses. We aren't going to be "just nurses". We are going to be great nurses.

However, if Heavenly Father tells me it's time to be a mommy on this earth again, I will most willingly put my schooling on hold to fulfill the amazing, magical, difficult-but-so-worth-it calling of being a mommy.

Because in my opinion, nothing is more important, nothing is more priceless, nothing is more powerful or influential than a mother. That is who I want to be, even more than a nurse. I am a mother. I always want to be a mother. I will gladly sacrifice the "things of this world", the many things which others flaunt, and I will do it because I applaud all those amazing mothers out there. Education is a blessing, it's wonderful. But, my own (humble... ehem) opinion is that a mother doesn't need to have an education to be a good mother. She needs special skills that come from the heart, from the soul. You can't learn that in any college or university, elite or not.

To you mothers, you true mothers, mothers of the heart, my applause and support is in your behalf. Thank you for loving these precious little ones.

PS One year ago this month...

PSS I'm not saying a woman should NOT get an education. I'm just saying, it's not a pre-req to be a good mother. ... ... ... just wanted to clarify.