Mercydez

The last several days have been extremely rough. So much has happened in such a short amount of time and yet it feels like it's been an eternity.

Our little Mercydez has really been struggling. We gathered our immediate families and our friends and we spent some time with Mercydez. We have had many sacred experiences.

Mercydez is still with us. She truly is a miracle. I won't go into detail, but, looking at things from a "logical" stand, she should have returned to Heavenly Father a while ago. But, she is stubborn. :) She is a fighter. She has had to be a fighter. And we will keep her for as long as we can. She is absolutely amazing. She is still extremely weak and we don't know really what to expect. We have decided to simply allow her to make her own decisions, along side Heavenly Father.

I can't tell you the peace we have felt. With that being said... I have not always maintained a "peaceful" disposition. Both Nic and I have suffered along side our princess. There is nothing worse than knowing you truly can't do anything to relieve what your child is going through. The only thing we have been able to do is hold her, love her, talk and sing to her. We have tried to provide as many comfort measures as possible, but even then, we feel like it's not enough.

There have been several moments when the veil has been extremely thin and it seemed as though it was unquestioningly her time to be welcomed to Heaven. She is constantly hovering between Heaven and Earth. However, Mercydez has held on and pulled through thus far. She is regaining her strength. She is able to express herself a little more.

We are so, so, so, so, so grateful for the time we have had with her. We are grateful for today and the time we get to spend with her. We don't know what tomorrow, or even tonight, will bring. We don't know if she will pull through this or if she will choose otherwise. We truly don't know what path she will take. But, we know without a doubt that a loving Father in Heaven is involved.