Miracles

Mercydez has been home now for two months and one day! And tomorrow Mercydez is six months old! We're trying to put together a fun birthday bash for her! It, of course, won't be on her six month birthday, but it will be sometime this month. We're workin' on it! Mercydez is doing really well! We took her to her doctors appointment last week and our doctor was completely blown away by how well she's doing. He just kept calling her a miracle baby. We already knew this. We've known this since our twenty-week ultrasound... infact, before then. He said we are on "uncharted water" and that she was at the wheel of the ship.

Looking back, she always has been at the front, taking the lead, and Christ has always been her lighthouse. Those many months at Primary Children's Hospital... she never listened to those doctors. Truly. She never let their guesses or predictions tell her what to do. She struggled, yes. But she always overcame her struggles. She's a sweetheart in every sense of the word. It's such a joy to have her.

This last week I met with a fantastic doctor who also has a child with Charge Syndrome. It was such a relief to talk with him. I felt like he truly understood me. There are so many difficulties and hardships that have to be endured. This doctor, this father, described it as perfectly as possible. Even if I were to repeat what he said, I feel like most wouldn't understand because it takes such a deep level of experience. I don't mean to demean or hurt anyone. I've just come to understand that there aren't many who truly understand the depth of what I'm experiencing. Last night it hit me, and quite forcefully, on how "alone" a person can feel, even if they aren't "alone", litterally speaking.

My mind has also been turned to a sweet little baby I'm associated with through a heart group. His name is Charlie and he returned to Heavenly Father last Thursday. I've just been thinking, constantly, about this little one. I've not been able to get his family off my mind. I've cried many tears for them. My heart has been theirs since I heard the news. I'm praying for you.

I've learned, in so many different ways, that miracles surround us. Often times these miracles come in packages we don't recognize. I've truly learned, from my own experiences, that sometimes life is the miracle, and sometimes freedom from life is the miracle. Sometimes to understand these miracles, we have to take a time-out and step back. If we truly look at our lives, study our lives, we will see miracles.