Monday: 3 miles, easy run. Don't run too hard today.
Tuesday: 3 miles, a little harder run.
Wednesday: Cross Training for 45 minutes OR rest day.
Thursday: 4 miles
Friday: Rest day
Saturday: 6 miles
So, I didn't do my five miles yesterday. I'm thinking I'll do it tonight before I go to bed. I'm FEELING healthier, but wow, I'm really tired. I shouldn't complain... but I'm going to anyway. It makes me feel better.
My bro-in-law, who is a big time runner, told me that it's okay if you aren't RUNNING the whole distance for each days training. It's just important to get the mileage on your leg muscles (your gastrocnemius muscle, your soleas muscle, etc... I know that, thanks to anatomy. Yay.). Anyway, so I'm not feeling quite as discouraged as earlier this week. I'm determined to do this. Why? Because it's what is right for me.
Speaking of what is right and all things associated with it... I am undergoing some deep thoughts in regard to my education. I'm amazed at how Heavenly Father guides our lives. I have been taking a good look at myself the last while and I've learned some things. Some good, some bad. But, I am learning how important it is to heed the inspiration from Heaven.
I've been thinking a lot about this last year. I can honestly say that I love my Heavenly Father, I love my Savior, and I am so grateful for the guidance of the Holy Ghost. For me, personally, this last year has been one of hardship. I have have been on the ever-dramatic, emotional rollercoaster ride we call grief. I can feel the stability returning to my spirit, my heart, my mind. I have been feeling the relief of finally being able to accept things, regardless how unfair I may feel they are. I have been feeling the peace promised to us because of the Atonement of our Savior. I wish I could put into words exactly what I am feeling.
I am just grateful. I'm so grateful for the experiences I have been blessed to have. How I love my little girl and I'm so happy for her. She is so happy right now. I love Nic. I couldn't ask for a better husband. I love my family. I am so grateful for them. I love my friends. I'm so grateful for those who have allowed me to grieve and be angry, to be happy and instantly change to weeping. I'm so thankful for those who have seen me in my most bitter, mean, hurt moments and have still loved me.
I'm not saying those hard times are over. But, I am saying that the storm is beginning to calm. And I am so thankful. I will forever miss my baby girl, but I know she wouldn't want me and Nic to be stuck in a rut of sorrow. Heavenly Father has blessed us in so many ways. Mercydez, Heavenly Father, and Jesus Christ want us, all of us (you too) to be happy. Joyful. Peaceful. Kind. Loving. Forgiving. Merciful. I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know there will be many more dark tunnels ahead, there will be hard days, hard weeks, hard moments... but, I am grateful for the light of the gospel. It is helping me in miraculous ways. I am so thankful.
And, I want you to know that there is always hope. Never let the sorrow or heartache consume you. You can be saved. I have witnessed it IN MY OWN LIFE. The same blessings are available to you. "And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you." (St. Luke 11:9)
8 comments:
Beautiful picture of your princess. You're weathering this icky icky road in sweet style, my darlin'. Keep on truckin'.
ash you are amazing! Enough said! I just love you!
You are a strong, incredible person. Good luck with your training!
You're awesome; thanks so much for sharing! And thank you for your thoughts the other week. You are a great strength.
Ashley, I think it's awesome that you are training to run a half marathon. Good luck with you training and at your race, you'll do great!
It makes me so happy to hear that you are starting to feel better. You and Nic are two very amazing people and you deserve it! You are a great example to me and I truly love reading your posts, you have so much strength.
that was very inspiring. :)
We think about you guys often and hope you are doing well. It's nice to get updated every so often. We miss you guys.
~Kevin & Catherine
I am so happy to hear that there is that light at the end of the tunnel. Ashley I want you to know that I really do think of you VERY often. I am so in awe with what an amazing person you are. You truly are so strong and I love nothing more than to read your blog. It strengthens my testimony each time I read yours. I thank you for that. Continue to stay strong for your angel and good luck on the marathon!!! (once again another example of your strength!!)
Ashley! I am such a horrible friend! I'm just now getting on your blog since forever ago and am catching up on all your posts. And I have to say like everybody else I am truly AMAZED with you and what you have gone through and your strength and the type of person you are!!!! You seriously are such a great example to me!! I know anything I say is just going to sound silly and pale in comparison to how I really feel, but just know that you are loved and looked up to very much!!!! Your blog is so cute! and even though I've never met your husband I can see the love ya'll have for eachother. You're such a cute, sweet, fun, loving couple!!! I'm going to try to be better about keeping up with your blog. :) But for now I should either finish studying or get to bed, ha! love ya! :)
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