I belong to this wonderful heart group. It's a group of love. It's a group of support. And, although most of us have never met face to face, we are family. So, it's difficult when you hear a "sister family" who is going through a great deal of pain.
My heart is hurting so badly right now. I'm so sorry. It feels so wrong to have a little one struggle so greatly. It feels so wrong to know that nothing more can be done. Why can't more be done? It's so hard. This world, it's so hard. Although there is great joy, there is also great heartache and sorrow. I've come to understand that sorrow is more then just sadness. It's deeper. It's consuming. That is how I'm feeling. I'm feeling it for sweet Gracie. I'm sorry for her family. I'm sorry for her. I wish I could do something for them... but prayers and long-distance love is all I have to give.
It's moments like this that bring my feet back to the ground. One day, it will be my turn. Back in October, I thought it was. But, my sweet little girl miraculously pulled through. It seems like that was so long ago. It seems like that wasn't real... like it never will be real.
Walking hand in hand with life and death truly is a different world. I have learned that life isn't about the next pair of shoes, or the nicer home, or the higher paying job. Life isn't about the most expensive outfit or luxury cars. Life is about family. Life is about love. Life is about serving those in need. Truly, it is.
I am grateful for the truth. I'm grateful for eternal families. I'm grateful to know that, even when it's my turn to say goodbye for a season, it isn't the end. I will have my baby again. Gracie will have her parents again too. I'm so grateful for that.
And so, as this night passes as we are all sleeping, I pray for those who will be awake, holding their sweet baby, and saying goodbye for this season. God be with you.
4 comments:
Very well said Ashley. I have been consumed with Gracie and her family for quite some time now. Your words are very touching. Thank you for sharing. Our prayers are with Gracie's family as well as yours. Love, Stacy
Your words are peace to my soul. You do just never know, but what we do know is how appreciate the miracle of a child. We love you guys and when things calm down around her, we want to get together for dinner.
Heart hugs,
Emily and Mike
I am a friend from Owen's blog and am so touched by your comments. We too have been where Gracie and her family is. We lost our little girl just over a year ago. She stayed six days. We struggled for months with her twin Mason and he is blessed and doing well. The only thing that can even closely comfort the saddest hearts in this time is the joy of eternity. And sometimes, that is not even close. Sometimes it doesn't seem fair to have to wait until forever to have that precious one in your arms. To all who need prayers, mine are with you.
Brother and Sister Haws, We share in your loss. The obituary that was written was beautiful. You two are so lucky to have had this beautiful baby in your home for these past few months.
We know that you will miss her celestial spirit, and the joy she must have brought to you. Your attitude is a message for us all. May Heavenly Father continue to bless you, and may the day of your reunion, be beyond joyful. May you enjoy your life together, with your other children, which will come, until you all meet again. We pray.
Love,
Bishop and Sister Chappell
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